Sad ... lack of communication .. i feel that my parents dun understand me lor . do i have to teach them how to be a good parent ??? Haiz ... why can't they just try to spend more time sitting down and understand us ... don't they know that they shouldn't just look at the surface but also the bottom ??? What can i do ? What can i say ???

And does it mean that once i have my personal laptop i cannot use the desktop ??? the family computer ??? why does my stupid sis have this mindset ??? Hello ... it's for her own good if she don't play too much com lor ... her O's ... i dunno what to say .. not putting in much effort from what i've saw . Pray hard ...

eyes swollen ....face pale .. my classmates told me when i reached dover ... what can i say ?? i dun wan to tell them that i had some family problems.. or even financial lor ... not close enough??? Perhaps ...

My heart is hurting , my mood is damn bad ... i need someone to comfort me , but i think no one is available at that moment . except , him ... he is the only who can really make me laugh ... it's my way of relaxing... all i need now, is to see him ...

i realised i'm now still not strong enough !!! why ?? hate myself really ... why does my tears flows down so easily without me realising it ? why can't i hold back ? not strong enough ...

Jealousy ... is also another strong part of me, i have realised ... i really hate to envy ppl , wadever ppl can do , i must be able to do ... strong determination ?? i dun tink so lor... it's all because of my strong feeling of jealousy .. it's a bad thing ...

and lastly , i think me really have some attitude problems sometimes ...well i guess everyone has his/her own one ... for me , i just hope as long as i can get along whom i think are my frens or classmates, it's good enough....


Depressed .. Sadness.. Frustrations ... get out of me !!