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Not for anyone to read except me myself ...

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Today wanyu very touching ... not funny actually ... well ... i can see that wanyu staffs really put in a lot of effort in today's episode ... the vcrs are so touching ... i am glad that i am able to see some parts of those past times de wanyu ...

haiz ... i held back my tears while watching ... knowing that you are really looking forward to this drama ... well i can only support you ... hope u can perform well la ...

xiezhi's words to you 'alerted' me .. yah .. comparison ... you definitely will be compared with chou xing chi ... but ... you must know that ... you are YOU ... so ... i hope u can act your own style out .. but not copy or imitation ...

haiz ... i cannot imagine wanyu without you for so many months ... although you have yr blog ... but what we fans want is see you LIVE on tv ... so that we can know how are you ... whether you are sick or what ? happy or sad and as well as discuss the news or latest topics wif us ...

furthermore, last time .. after school ..i would rush home before 6pm so that can see you on wanyu .. but now .. i think there's no such need anymore .. so sad .. it's like live without and motive or hope le ... no more X factor liao ... haiz ... (>_<;)

I am really sad ... really very sad ... but i cannot do anything to stop you from going off ... I am i have to bear and accept it ... refreshing your blog every now and then ... hoping to see you updating any little tiny things you had gone through or encountered ...

Seriously ... i am like a body without a soul ... especially now is holidays ... everyday sleep com eat .. now even worst .. i am searching for stories written by fans ... got touched and cheered by these stories ... although they are not real .. but i treat in as real in my mind .. why ? cos i am so sad and bored ... so reading those stories is like covering my 'lonely' times without you ...

BYE renfu ... i wish you good luck ... see you soon ...
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